Sooo my purpose in life is to obey the Lord. Easy right!!? Heck to the no. Well at least not for me anyway. As the count down begins for the "great adventure" or whatever you wanna call it I find preparation being my biggest obstacle for my obedience. If you have ever heard or read the story of Mary and Martha from Luke 10:38-42 (if not that's okay but you totally should), I am Martha. I wish my mind worked liked Mary's. I like to be prepared, if you know me than you know that spontaneous or dare devil is not my middle name. Some may know me as the Mother Hen of the group. For example, people like to go cliff jumping because it is exhilarating and crazy, I however jump off I five foot cliff and get a bloody nose from anxiety and yes this did happen. When people are explaining how they got this totally awesome scratch or scrape from this unbelievable wipe out my first words are: "Holy crap did you disinfect that!!?" I am the type of person who plans a "hang out" two weeks in advance, needless to say I am not very good at just flying by the seat of my pants.
Martha and Mary are sisters and Martha opened her home to Jesus and His disciples to come eat and rest. Martha was, "distracted by all the preparations that had to be made" (Luke 10:40). Let's be honest, I would be running around like a chicken with its head cut off if Jesus was coming over to my house. I mean this is the Son of God, everything would have to be perfect, Right? Wrong. Nothing would have to be perfect. Mary the other sister simply sits at the feet of Jesus and listens to what He has to say (Luke 10:39). And when Martha sees this she is pretty much angry with her sister for just sitting there and doing nothing to help her. I would be guilty of the same. But when Martha runs over to Jesus to complain about her sister Mary being a lazy-bum He simply says, "Martha, Martha". "You are worried and upset about many things, but only one thing is needed. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her." (Luke 10:41-42) I get so caught up in and fixed on the preparations for Australia and trying to make sure that I can control as much as I possibly can before I get there I forget to sit and listen. I forget to sit at the feet of Jesus and listen to what He is preparing me for. I forget to let Him prepare my heart in a way that I could never possibly.
My whole life I have been a worrier, a lot of times a silent worrier, but for the past few years I have been working with the Lord to give it all up to Him. When I do, it is the most freeing experience to just trust and not carry these unnecessary burdens. So when I picture Jesus talking to Martha I instead interpret it like this and replace my name with hers so that He says to me: "Karri, Karri". "You are worried and upset about many things, but only one thing is needed. Me." So this journey beckons me to be this spontaneous, trusting woman of God, to fly by the seat of His pants (What? awkward.) but really. Bring on the adventure and bring on the crazy cause this girl is goin for a crazy ride that begins and ends with Jesus.
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