I think the question is not if I am prepared but is anyone ever
really prepared? I mean am I prepared to encounter giant spiders or kill poisons frogs? Am I prepared for a 15 hour flight with the possibility of getting blood clots from sitting so long (unlikely. But really. It could happen). Am I ready to be graduated from college? Am I prepared to be a wife? Am I prepared to be a mom? Am I prepared to change poopy diapers? Am I prepared to trust the Lord completely with every aspect of my life? Am I prepared to go to heaven? I don't think there is a hand book on how to deal with giant spiders or even how to be a good mom or how to change a raunchy diaper. The only thing I know is that, it's okay not to be prepared. Why? Because I trust the Lord to keep me secure and safe and to guide me. You can tell me a thousand times what I need to do to prepare for a test but in reality when it comes down to it, it is by the grace of God where I pull those answers from. So like in many situations in my life it is agian by the grace of God that I am prepared. And my idea of prepared may be different than His idea of prepared. But I mean if I was prepared for EVERYTHING in life, life would be straight up lame and boring. My mind can not possibly prepare itself for being on a different continent than literally everyone I know but am I scared? For some reallllyyy odd reason, no. The only explanation for it is: Jesus. Shocked?! I know. Me too. It's not like I talk about Him all the time or anything..
I know that His presence with me is a guaranteed promise (just read Psalm 139 and you will see what I mean by always being with us). Now the thing about this is it can either be seen as a blessing or a curse. At times I see it as a blessing and than at other times not so much, I mean if He is always with me what happens if I have to go to the bathroom? Talk about a major breech in the personal bubble space. I joke about this stuff but I know I am never separated from Him and the challenging part about all of this is that I must see Him through eyes of faith. I don't get to see Him face to face until I see Him in Heaven but I know that when I do my Joy will be off the charts by any earthly standard (Jesus Calling). I am okay with having Jesus in my bubble and that is the only reason why I can explain this lack of fear to take off on my adventure. I can't wait. Who wouldn't be excited!! I would have to be a crazy person not to be! Okay, well I am a little bit of a crazy person but everyone is in their own way, which I love. Or maybe I would describe it not as crazy just, "special". So here is a peek into my little bit of crazy:
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Keep in mind these are all PILES of clothing and I am just getting started.. I'm in some serious trouble |
So I am doing my very best to never forget that the Lord is with me because when I do fear starts creepin up on me.
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